Just wanted to say hi and update for those who might be following along. LOL!
It is strange - dating after all the time I was with one person. My xh was my first real relationship and I was just a young girl. We were together over 30 years.
As most of you know, I am four years post bomb. I was not looking to date for a lot of reasons.
This just kinda happened.
Anyway, it is still odd at times. Cant quite explain it. Sometimes for a split second, I think - where is xh? Weird.
I am not sure where this will go. I like being on my own. While it was/is lonely sometimes, it is nice to be in charge of my own life.
I only see my friend on the weekend. We enjoy each other's company. We like the same things and our personalities are similar. He likes to laugh. That is a big change from my xh, who was very serious.
I am taking it one day at a time. I am not sure this will be a big love affair. I do not feel that way about him.Not sure if I ever will. But, it sure is nice to have someone to spend time with.
I continue to learn more about me. I am growing back to the me I used to be all those years ago. As I do, people respond differently to me and it's nice.
And as I have noticed that my xh seems to be the winner on here of the most ridiculous things said, I give you our last conversation from last week.
He: Hey, just calling to see how son is.
Me: He's better, I think. I guess you should ask him though.
He: Yeah, well, he is a man of few words.
Me: Wonder where he gets that from. LOL!
He: Yeah, well. Anyway, how are you? Son tells me you're still not feeling so well.
Me: He just worries about me, I guess. I am doing fine. Thank you for asking.
He: Think we could get together and talk about a few things this wekend?
Me: Sure, what do you want to talk about?
He: Nothing in particular, just thought it would be nice to catch up.
Me: I have plans most of the weekend, but Saturday morning I'm free.
He: Ok, call you when I come up.
Now we all know he wasnt gonna call, right? Right.
Calls me yesterday.
He: Hey B. Sorry we couldnt get together this weekend.
me: Ok
he: I didnt call.
Me: OK
He; no. didnt you remember that I was supposed to? Geez, B. You are losing it.
Me: ok
He: Well, I guess it wasnt too important then.
Me: I gotta go. I am losing it.
He: I know.
And then, can we say it all together now.....the banging of the head on the wall.
I have to say, he does keep me amused. And apparently, he keeps you all amused,too.
