AC, brother, I feel for you. There are no words to ease your pain. I will tell you this, though: as each day passes, you will feel a little stronger (I know, it sounds like a tired cliche, but it is true). You'll backslide here and there, but the distance and no contact factors work both ways; you will find yourself working more on yourself and thinking less of your W, and I can tell you, that is a good feeling.
There is nothing you can do about her right now, but there is a lot you can do about you.
We're all praying and thinking good thoughts for you. You do the same for yourself.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS