Time to start a new thread, as the world is different now. Spent the weekend loading W's UHaul. W was very anxious all week, saying goodbye to friends, getting ready for the move. Now she is gone.
Now I am in limbo. The D papers W filed in May have expired, so nothing legal has been done. We have not split funds, but she took everything she owns with her. W maintains she needs to move to heal herself and reevaluate life. Says she has no idea what the future holds. I don't think she is coming back, and certainly cannot mope around waiting for her to return.
I am leaving contact up to her. She will soon be living a new life 1500 miles away. I hope she is able to get her head on straight. I don't know if or when reality will hit her. Part of me says she is just done with me and our M and that I should close the door and move on. I definately took the high road in helping her with her transition. Keep the road home smooth as folks here say.
Reality is sinking in here in this big empty house. I am alone. My head is spinning. I need to shake myself and get on with life and start moving toward my goals. I need to GAL. I cannot let the depression suck me in.
Am told time is on my side. The distance is a problem. Out of sight, out of mind. I think I need to accept reality. She is not coming back.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012
