The reason is that I was/am afraid that if I hurt her, she will walk away from me.
Uhmmm......Didn't that already happen ?
No. I believe he's talking about the OW here not his W.
I respect your courage, Denver. I find these kinds of things can be hard to admit to oneself. One thing I found was that being much less attached to the outcome with OW allowed me to see myself and my reactions at a more comfortable arms length and learn some very valuable things.
I found that identifying the physical location in my body of the fear and neediness and breathing through it, directing my breath to that place, for instance a sick feeling just below my navel, and breathing deeply into it, helped to unwind some deep knots on both a physical and mental level. Might help you also.
