WAW in Los Angeles

[wawinla]

I was wondering how your situation was going:

Thanks for checking in.

I still struggle with getting emotional high/low whenever there's contact with my WAS. I fight the urge to mind read and over analysis each word.

Probably human nature - we really, really want something and so we look for any possible inroad that might exist in there.

I think that recognition that you have, where you notice, "oh, I'm getting kind of worked up about this" is probably a good first step to figuring out a different way to look at it.

Chances are you could tell yourself "This is probably not a coded message" or something along those lines.

Appreciate the insight. Detachment is important, until I communicated or see my WAS. As you noted, I need to manage my reactions. Like many parts of this journal, much easier said then done.

Should I attend the party? I know the folks that will be there, friends of mine as well but obviously closer to my WAS.

Do you want to attend the party? Could you have something else going on that is also very interesting? Might create a little mystery.

I guess it depends on what business as usual was for you back in the day.

I would normally attend the party...it is with friends. Some friends say I shouldn't go...that my WAS is being passive aggressive, acting as though everything is okay.

I'm torn. Make an appearance and then leave. That's what I'm leaning towards.