Hey hon, you do not need to be on any dating site, from what I see. You are still married, pining for your H, and what you have idealized in your mind. In your opinion, what have you done for yourself that you feel is an improvement over the other you? The one your H walked out on? You are stuck right where you are right now, and have been for a long time. When was the last time you spoke to your H? Have you ever considered giving yourself a date into the future, when you can steel yourself for it, and ask him to meet you somewhere where you two can speak alone about your situation? I mean, when will you ever speak to him again? I know you are scared witless about it, but you seem to me to be a smart and good person, who just needs to get out of this limbo you are in. For yourself and your son. Maybe I don't give great advice, but I think I would do something. I think about your sitch sometimes, and wish for things to get better for you.
