Been thinking about you lately. Looks like things have not changed much, so hang in there.
Nothing much new on my end. Have now detached completely from W. Kids were sent to grandparents for last 8 days and come back tomorrow night. No contact with W / completely dar. I now believe all my "positive" interactions with my W this summer were only confusing the situation. Better just to go / remain dark. It is necessary for many reasons. First, it hurts too much afterward to see her, exchange pleasantries, and watch her walk away. I don't want to continue to be reminded of the life I lost. Second, she really does need an extended period of time alone and so do I. Time to assess the paths of our lives without the distraction and stimulus of these interactions (going out to dinner with the kids, inviting her to have a glass of wine when she stops by the house, etc.). And the final reason is to continue to GAL, to get used to my new life as a single dad and as a future single guy, but don't quite yet understand any of this.
These may be sad times, but there ultimately has to be some positives.
