Sorry you are going through this too. It is unreal how they can leave and seem to never look back at us or their children. I feel I have been alone for so long and I have. He has spent so much time away drinking that I am used to being alone. Now, I am looking forward to a new R with someone. Someone who is kind, honest, and loving. I feel too, I did the best I could do. For him and our family. It wasn't enough for him.