Just Be 2

[Denver_2010]

Update -

Well, this is going to be brief since I have not had any contact from W since her text message on Friday when I was going to that concert.

I have really, really struggled since she and I had contact on Thursday and Friday of last week.

I think that I had gained a level of detachment up until then that is now gone.

I think that detachment was much easier before W told me on Thursday that she loved me and missed me... but she still doesn't know what she wants.

Basically I've spent the past 4 days wondering what, if anything, is going through my W's head. Does she think about our sitch non-stop as I do? Is she concerned that she is losing me? Is she doing any self reflection at all? What is she thinking about OW and me?

I know... waste of time wondering.

I continue to be emotionally exhausted from all of this and wonder how much longer I can endure. Of course, I am blown away that I have been able to endure this for 9 months... so who knows.

But there are times, everyday, that I just want to reach out to W and try to convince her to give this M a chance. I know that I can't do this though.

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I purchased tickets to a concert for W, SS and I that is one week from tonight. I purchased these tickets BACK IN JUNE...

I don't know what to do about the tickets. I know that going with W is not an option right now. So I either use the tickets myself, sell them, or give them to W so that she can take SS and someone else. Thoughts on what others think that they would do with this would be appreciated.


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Denver

P.S. Cat - you asked me if I wanted W to come back bc she is jealous. The answer to that is 'no', BUT if W being jealous causes something in her to snap and realize that she does NOT want to lose me and that she does want our M to work, then that would be fine with me.