Cat - I have a pretty good idea of what reconciliation would look like and what kind of life, and M, that I want to see W and I have.

Basically, I want what W wanted all of these years, but I either wasn't ready for or resisted for some other reason.

Now that I want it, W doesn't know if she does.

Lotus - Thanks. It is very difficult not to reach out to W right now.

M 43
X 38
T 13
W moves out of home 11/2010
Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012
I request divorce 5/2012
W moves home 6/2012
Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015
I leave 3/2016
process of divorce