Preseason has begun...just trying to make the cut

[MadeToSucceed]

I'd told her that taking care of the bill thing over the phone instead of in person would allow me to attend an interview and save a both a trip. She took care of it, told me it was done and I said ok.

She messaged me on bbm (BlackBerry Messenger - we use it to communicate when she heads overseas) last night. About 8:30pm or so she says: "Hope your interview went well. I'm praying for you."

I didn't open it right away. About 11pm I sent her a message back saying nothing more than "thanks." I saw she received the message and I got ready for bed.

I woke up late this morning and when I went to check my phone, I noticed I had one less contact on my bbm. She'd deleted me out of her contact profile.

The significance of this for me is that in the past she's done this when she's "thought I did something." When she was upset or angry at me for some reason. Well...she leaves today to head to Korea and will be there until sometime in early September. That was our means of communication when she was overseas.

As much as I'm trying to make it seem like I'm "ok" that one kinda hurt me. I figured she would at least say good bye before leaving. I didn't "do" anything to her last night to cause her to delete me. I don't know. I just feel some kind of way. The last time she deleted me (when I didn't respond because I was in the shower), I texted her and explained what happened, sent her an invite back and she added me again. I have nothing to explain this time.

Part of me wants to wish her well and tell her travel safely and that I'm praying for her via text. Another part of me says this is what she wants...me to "chase" her. Me to notice she deleted me and make an appeal to her. In the spirit of DB'ing, I don't know which action gets me closer to or further from my goal...so I really don't know what to do, if anything.