cat - I've thought about that quite a bit. In fact, guilt has been a major catalyst for a lot of things I've put up with in my M. It's no way to live. And the end result is that you end up where I am now. So, I definitely have to change the pattern here and stand up for the truth despite my feelings.

I know that it's going to be really difficult to watch H come to the realization that I'm not an option. I've been his backbone and support in ways that he hasn't even fathomed.

Now, I have to be my own backbone and support. I have to make myself the top priority...and I actually want to. Somehow, I lost that in my M. Never again!

Me: 33, H: 32
M: 12 years T: 13 years
No kids
D-Day: 7/2009
Separated: 10/12/10
Future Unknown
GITS

"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele