Alright, in looking over Brooklyn's post, I'm fluctuating between stages 6 and 7 and not in 7. So it makes sense, then, that the dating thing is not working.
I cancelled the auto renewal about to kick in for my eharmony account and I felt a weight lift, so that definitely tells me something. I also got an email from the guy I met the other day and he said while I was a really nice person and he enjoyed spending time with me, that he really didn't know what he wanted in life or have a sense of direction (this was what I had said was really important to me, that a person have a strong sense of self), and so he didn't think he was a good match for me. (I'm glad for his honesty at least...the last thing I want is a rel. with a person who is a "project" of sorts ;-)
So I guess he came into my life for a reason--to tell me I wasn't ready yet and to stay where I am with still working on myself. I got out my book "Let Go Now" on detachment and read tonight something that made me tear up and that fits with what Brooklyn said about forgiveness, and I still think I haven't forgiven myself for the past. Anyway here it is, and I think it is what I need to remind myself of every day:
"We are always where we need to be on this path. We are always traveling with those we need to travel with. Period. There are no accidents. Ever. I will accept whatever is happening as part of the plan for me today."
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying