For the first time in years I finally feel like I have control. I believe my wife is having a MLC and leaving me. No separation, just divorce.
Do I hurt? Yes, more than anything. The thing I realized today is that she's not my problem anymore. She can't control me with her manipulation. I don't have to answer her phone calls or text messages. She wants out, so, I'll let her out...which means I'm my own man. It's not about her anymore.
One thing that has helped me more than anything is the new record from Blue October named Any Man In America. The whole album is about his wife cheating on him and taking away his daughter. The listener is guided step by step from his pleading for her to stay, his divorce and his letting go. It's given me the strength and confidence that I need. I can be strong now.
So, here's to new beginnings. I know I'm gonna hurt, but I know I'm not alone. I have too much self-respect to let this take me down. I'll be here when she comes out of the fog, but when and if that will be is up to her. Again, that's not my problem anymore.
