Telemark, your thoughts are yours, you are in control of them, you can make them do what you want.
if you're feeling down walking through your house, change your perspective. find the angle that allows you to be happy.
empty room = lonely? OR empty room = music studio?
perspective. your choice, you'll just need to remind yourself who is in charge.
paint the walls, its inexpensive, and makes it yours. cover up some of the memories. its ok.
keep the music on.
and yes, take a break from reading books on relationships and marriage.
and as soon as you recognize you're thinking of the sitch, force yourself to think of something else. break the habit of thinking about the R.
I had gotten to the point that i needed to take a break from here, it was too much. constantly thinking of DBing and Rs and Sitch's became a habit. and thats not GALing, its self-destructive. even now, 2 years later i came back hoping to give back, and it sometimes affects me negatively so that all those old thoughts are back. i may have to leave again, but i want to help still.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
