I am so lost... someone PLEASE help me!!! 5

[LearningPatience]

I admit I'm not completely following your sitch, but a few things stood out to me...

I want to invite myself along on the picnic. Her actions tell me that she is planning a seperate life under the same roof until she has the money to seperate, and to program the kids to being used a break up situation. I do not want seperate activities. I think it is important to do things together as a family. Her behaviors is very contradictory friendly one day, contradictory the next.

Is this normal behavior?

Yes, the WAS often goes hot and cold. Your job is to be as steady as you can.

Also, there's generally nothing wrong with having your own time with the kids. I think family time is very important, but so is alone time, with or without kids.

Should I invite myself along to see what her response will be?

It would tell me if she wants me there or not...

No, you shouldn't invite yourself. The answer may be irrelevant anyhow, because she could change her mind every hour until then. You're trying to test the waters and the likely outcome is that you will get burned.

Is it a test from her to see what my reaction will be?

Is she feeling me out after my not talking to her last night?

Hard to say.

Also It is important to mention that I am trying to take myself off my Anti Depressant Meds, as I am unhappy with the side effects... Its been 3 days now without them...

This is what prompted me to respond. I don't know which ADs you are taking, but I *strongly* suggest that you do not wean yourself from them without running it by your doctor first. There are some meds where the withdrawals are pure h3ll... you don't want that right now.

Hope this helps.