Beatrice's post has a lot of good ideas in it. I esp think you may want to sell the house (when the market allows...)
but of course, you don't have to decide anything today.
I'm glad you are making the appt with the doctor. Bless you for seeing the signs and doing something about it THEN!
I recall being very sad after my dad's death. 6 weeks after, I was clinically depressed but didn't quite know it. I mean, I felt I SHOULD feel like crap as a situational response.
The kids were small and so kind to me. H told them at one point I could not play on the floor (4th night in a row) b/c "mommy's sad right now" and d4 asked me, with love and a little fear in her eyes,
"Are you going to be sad Every night?"
Both kids stared at me, waiting for my answer. I said, "no, I'm going to be happy again."
I saw a shrink the next day. Got on ADs and for me, they were a miracle.
I bought a copy of "The Power of Now" also on audio. Found it VERY soothing and comforting to listen to at night.
You may want to try it. For me, it's cognitive behavioral work on getting us
ways to THINK healthier and happier.
Carry on, A, it DOES get better.
And I hope you'll take the hair shirt off soon.
Even if most of the divorce were your fault
(NOT Saying that, just hypothetical)
once you own your part and work on it as a self improvement task,
what's the use of more self flaggellation?
Keeps you in the darkness. Go to the light and enjoy the sun again.
((( )))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
