Journal: Huh. Seems some of the feelings are still there. Thought I was past much more of this. I'm a wreck some days lately. That's partly from the stress, but partly that my mind is making some connections that before I hadn't made. I still don't think like that, so it's not natural to get these stray connections.
It occurred to me that she was using me for the anger. Ok. Break that connection. Check.
I occurred to me that she wants me to date so she doesn't feel bad about what she's done. Makes things "even" so to speak. That's a thought I had and I have learned to go with many of those thoughts; I've been right more than wrong. The thing is, I'll do what's right for me. Regardless. It doesn't change my feelings. It does however explain some things which brings a sort of peace in a weird way.
Anyhow, just journaling. My son came over today after his beach trip. Very nice to see him and hang out. We watched blazing saddles
Later,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
