It's me - I haven't been on here in months, maybe even a year. I think I started coming here in 2008. And nothing has really changed. DH says all the right things, but we have sex twice a month if I'm lucky. He's very matter-of-fact and always telling me something interesting he saw online or on TV - but so rarely anything romantic, emotional or sexual. I wonder if he has any strong or passionate feelings about me at all. I tried to GAL. But honestly, my job is so demanding I don't have much time or energy for hobbies or activities. I had lost a lot of weight in 2009-2010, but it didn't make any difference in his behavior, so I got discouraged and gained some back. I miss the passion of our early relationship, don't want to cheat, but feel unappreciated. The reason I rarely come here anymore is that I've read the books, I've tried GAL and I still feel like he can take me or leave me. I'm only here right now bcs I'm hurt and lonely and need to vent to some other people in the same boat. I wonder if anyone sees me in a sexual way at all anymore. Should I just resign myself and get ready to be an old lady? At 47 I don't feel old yet; and if I have to be old, I want to be allowed to retire.
