Walking in Muskeg - Part IV - Squishy Rubber Boots

[Queen_of_Swords]

Yes a new name chosen from tarot cards.
Thank you for the well wishes Cadet.

Update:

Well STBX came by to drop off the kids, and with a package I had picked up for him on Saturday.
In the package was a complete BluRay DVD/ sound system package.

To say I was astonished would be an understatement.

He stayed a few hours setting it up, with my help even though I am inept when it comes to electronics hookups and specs. He excels in this area.

I hugged and kissed him a sincere thank you and told him how thoughtful and kind that was and how appreciated.

I also reiterated my thanks with a text after he left.

It's funny though. I feel no physical or sexual attraction to him anymore. He's still a stranger to me and I'm not even sure I want him back right now. I'm now afraid if he does come back it'll be more of the same for me, and I don't want that.

Material things are all nice, we all have things we want, but that for me is not my overriding concern. I don't want to be back where I was personally or inter-personally, where my partner is a workaholic and primarily solitary and has little to no time for "us".