Wife no longer in love with me

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I struggle to see much of what she has done wrong. Even though she is blaming me for the lot, I know she should have done things differently too, but I should have been a better husband and person. I should have listened more to what she was saying, I should have had shown more affection and respect.
I know everything I did which was wrong and I know I would never repeat the same mistakes with her or anyone else again.
I am just trying to be realistic that it is very very unlikely I will ever get the chance to be the person I can be with her.

Unfortunately I am dealing with a person who has constantly run from issues in her life and has put her faith and trust in 'friends' that are leading her this way and they will never let her go back to 'protect' her.
I am dealing with a person who has been through a lot of crap in her life and has this ability to put up a 'wall' and block everything out which was good and focus on the negatives to move on. She will continue to run and soon she will be gone out of the country and out of my life for good. She will not get the chance to see me for who I really am and who I can become.
I'm just very sad that we were supposed to start a family this year and I spend a lot of time with my friends and their kids and I will not get that chance now with my one true love.