It's like a fight or flight response I keep having. I think it is because I don't have a plan, and I like to have plans even if only vague ones.
I've had a few days on my own as I am house sitting for my sister and I have been just able to relax away from staying at my parents and feeling pressured (not from them, just in terms of feeling like I have returned to teenagehood) and it has done me the power of good. Funny, because before exh left I could never be on my own now I *love* it, just now and then to re-coup myself. Also cat sitting, cats seem to do me good!
Anyway, I know I want to do some more trips away it is just where and when and whether I have to finish a few things here in terms of my job, which is very important to me. The saying I keep seeing at the moment is 'Keep calm and carry on', very British lol so I am trying to stick with it. Changing my perspective seems to help with the panic and feeling stuck.
