Beatrice, I love your thread! Always great insight from you and those that post to you.

Even after almost 2 years of H being gone I sometimes want to ask him if there is anything he misses about me or our life together.

I don't do it because I'm sure it would set him off spewing and I still let him have the power to hurt me sometimes. I'm better off not giving him the opportunity.

I do believe he may miss some things. For instance Christmas was very special at our house. (It still is) I do hear of him trying to recreate some of our traditions with the ow. Sometimes I can't help wondering if he enjoys it as much there or if it's a hollow shell of what ours were like when he was here.