I know this is wrong but today I do equate my happiness if H is miserable or unhappy. I don't want him enjoying himself. I like to hear he looks bad, etc. I know its is childish but right now he doesn't seem to be suffering ANY consequences of what he has done to our family and it makes me angry. I am dealing with the tears of his children and my broken heart and he is out partying and living with OW. Venting here today!
