So weirdish turn of events.

Last night W was nice. Both S and D had soccer games at the same time on adjoining fields. Rather than sit with her mom and watch son's game, she sat with me between both fields so we could watch both games.

She had been planning a gambling outing with her mom after soccer, but they bagged it. I had already planned to go to the outdoor free concert with kids - which we did - I offered if W and MIL wanted to join, but MIL did not want to.

When we got home last night, W was in a good mood after going out to a restaurant and drinking with her mom.

I noticed that a pic of the four of us (me, W, S, D) at a baseball game - the only family pic that was on our picture tree in the downstairs hallway was now gone. I went upstairs and asked "Where's the picture of us at the game?" She said "I took it down." I said "Where is it?" She said "In a drawer." I said "Why?" Then the kids came in and she said "I'll tell you later."

Well - I don't like the sound of that! That along with how happy she was acting almost sounds like she's reached a 'peaceful place' where she's likely going to end things. That's my interpretation anyway - WHICH I KNOW IS SOMETHING I SHOULD NOT DO!

Anyway - she got in the shower and I went to bed. I decided to just turn off the light and roll over. Didn't really want to hear what her reasons were for putting the recent pic of the family having fun together out of sight. Probably a cowardly move - maybe I'd be better off hearing the reason, regardless of what it is. For now I just plan to drop it.

She's in a good mood this morning too. Even talking to me - sharing something funny from a Facebook friend. I'm feeling REALLY weird at this point.

Also - we had been thinking about getting her a new car, but she said now she just thinks she'll get new tires and do the maintenance on her current car - which to me sounds like she doesn't want to make the additional commitment so she's better positioned for 'exit'.

As for the listening stuff - YES - keeping some attention 'within my body' is a technique to help with listening. I should have clarified that. In 'The Power of Now' the book talks about using that focus and 'listening with your whole body'. That's what I meant.


Me-44, W-38
S12, D10
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EA: 3/20/11
Bomb: 3/25/11
"I'm waiting til June to 'do something'" statement from W: 4/26/11
Still in same house, in same bed