Decided to go to the concert of a local band the Samples tonight. Coolest Colorado band ever btw. OW could not leave when I wanted to because she was playing golf, so I decided to go alone.
Because I was going alone, I decided to post on FB that I was going and asking any of my friends to let me know if they were going to be there.
The Samples is a band that W and I both like. W actually performed with the lead singer, Sean Kelly, at a smaller venue that we attended last summer. We had planned on hiring him to perform at a party at our house late last summer before our problems got really bad. It ended up not happening.
About 2 minutes after I posted on FB that I was going to the concert, W initiated text convo.
W: "You s*ck. Have fun at the Samples show."
Me: "Why do I s*ck??"
W: "Cause you saw they had a show first. I was just kidding. Saw your FB post. Have fun. Say hi to Sean."
Me: "Ok"
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W's continued insistence on contacting me has definitely affected the progress that I had made with detaching. Admittedly, it has also affected my interest in OW.
I admit that I wanted so badly to tell W that I was going alone and to ask her to go with me (she did not know, nor could she tell from my FB post who I was going with, if anyone)... .
I didn't of course.
I can't be drawn back into the same situation as I have been in with her over the past 5+ months. I simply can't allow that to happen.
Anyway...
A song written by Sean Kelly and performed by the Samples (the band that I saw tonight) struck me. One of their best songs... and one of the saddest songs that I know...
Guess this is how I feel tonight... and how I am increasingly becoming to feel...
Nothing Lasts for Long
"Take my hand And walk with me And tell me who you love And make a wish and you can see The first star from above
Ya ever feel so deep and lost Somewhere in the past? Is it wrong to not hold on if nothing ever lasts?
Maybe nothing lasts for ever Not the mountain or the sea But the times we have together They will always be with me
The sun is down and the wind is calm As it gently fades away I wonder then and I think of you And how nothing ever stays
Take my hand And walk with me And tell me who you love Make a wish and you can see The first star from above
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
