I can't expect for her behavior to make sense. As someone who hates to be alone it really doesn't surprise me that she would start talking to someone who would be ready to jump into a relationship with her immediately. Not that I know that's happening but I know that is something she will try to do. I'm not willing to just jump back into the marriage head first right now and act as if nothing had happened.
I figure it's a common thing what she is doing now. She found a mate outside her marriage that she thought was what she wanted. he drops her so now she thinks she knows what she is looking for but really to downgrade? I think it's a downgrade anyways considering he has nothing of his own really.
As far as that situation goes typically I would try to talk it to death and today when she said she doesn't feel anything for me I said very little about it today although there was really a lot I wanted to say just to try to understand it but no matter what she says it still wouldn't make sense.
I know she expects me to be there at her beck and call and for her to be the priority in my life but the truth of the matter is I can't allow her to be. So I will make myself not readily available to her once again.
I had drifted pretty far away from her so I figure this is just her way of trying to keep me within arms reach. She said she doesn't want me to walk away because she still cares about me. She said that when she told me she doesn't feel anything for me.
Tomorrow I will continue my usual activities. Jogging in the morning and hang out with friends tomorrow evening.
