Spent the last several hours reorganizing the kitchen, changing the home office, getting all the books back in order...as I was finishing, it hit me that nobody else was going to come home and walk in the door. That put me in a somber state of mind at that moment.
I'm not sure what I miss; certainly not the person my W has become, and maybe not even the person my W used to be. I suppose I miss someone walking in the door, giving me a nice hug and kiss and being very happy to see me.
Even the dogs are melancholy; they seem to know something is very different. They also are at my feet constantly now, as if they are afraid I'm going to leave, also.
W had come by the house earlier to get more of her things; I was at work but technically it is still "our house" so I didn't have an issue with that. But this evening I noticed more items are gone. Silly things like a $5 clock that was in my bathroom, a small wooden box that I thought had no sentimental value at all and-this is the most peculiar-all of the kitchen spices, even the half-empty containers.
I'm not angry at all about it, just bemused.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
