Kaffe, thanks for your thoughts as well. I do feel like I'm dealing with standard WAS behaviour. A whole lot of talk and very little positive action.
Just a little journaling...
The other day, H grabbed me while I was in the kitchen and started crying on my shoulder. He said he feels so bad for how angry he has been with me and that seeing so many happy families at the campground the other weekend made him sad. He was affectionate and loving for the rest of the day.
Then of course, he spent the entire evening with S7 and then went to bed early...
The following day, he saw that I had ordered a book that came in the mail and asked about the title via text. I ignored his text because the book was on abandonment and healing. (I read about on the forum and bought it the day of the last bomb). Later, he brought it up again so I told him the title. He asked if I ordered the book because I wanted a divorce or if it was because I didn't trust him.
I replied, "I don't trust you," and then walked away. As I was walking away he said, "That's fair."
The next day, he tells me he's going to the bookstore and he comes home with a marriage saving book. (I admit I snooped.) Well, it didn't take much effort as he left the bag open on the kitchen counter.
Today, he sent me a text asking if we can talk after the kids are in bed and discuss the relationship books we've bought. Then he texts if I can also bring my book on contemplating divorce. Nice. I've ignored these texts because I'm stumped and don't wish to get back on the rollercoaster.
Actually, forget the rollercoaster, I feel like I'm on the Crazy Train.
I've ignored these texts because I'm stumped and don't wish to get back on the rollercoaster.
