My feelings are changing...sitch isn't

[tadpole1025]

Yes AJ. I have noticed the back and forth.

I would like to be friends with her, but the problem is that I want something more than just "friends." If I'm not a friend to her, doesn't that shut the door to all possibilites in the future?

As for the weekend, I've got nothing big planned. I just may kick it by the pool. Easy to do here in Arizona!

Now the update:

I told W yesterday that I would go ahead and have lunch with her today after she deeded the house to me at the courthouse.

We get to the courthouse today and she looked awful. Pretty to me of course, but not like she used to be. Just a funny note: her eyebrows seem to be getting higher and higher. It must be the way she is plucking them, but she is starting to look like Faye Dunaway in "Mommy Dearest."

W has had these forms to fill out for months. We get to the office and she is missing all of the necessary info: parcel #, subdivision name, the entire "legal description." So.....now I get to do this all over again on Tuesday.

She suggested that we go have lunch anyways. She asked me where I wanted to go and told her that I would be happy with whatever she wanted. We ended up choosing Mexican food. When we arrive at the place, she tells me that this is "her treat." I thanked her.

I like my food spicy. When we have Mexican food, I always ask for the extra spicy hot sauce. Today, she asked for it. When the waiter left, I asked her why she ordred the extra spicy sauce. She says: "because that is what you like.' I said okay and thanked her again.

We had a nice time, no R talk at all even though I wanted to so badly. We talked about everything, but us. Caught her gazing at me a few times. I was going to say something, but I didn't.

There was once that I felt like I was getting choked up, but I controlled myself. Overall, I think I did well today. I didn't say anything to p!ss her off and she didn't do anything to hurt me.

She asked a lot of questions about my new job and wondered if I would be able to handle it because of my bad shoulder.

Now, here is what scares me: she doesn't seem to look or act like she is in "crisis mode" like she did a few months ago. There are a few things that I notice, but she doesn't seem to be the fruit loop like she once was.

What the hell is going on?

Tad