I have never truly understood why my h did what he did.
But we choose to focus going "from this day forward" rather than seeking out answers I doubt exist
or would satisfy me.
Just saying don't spend too much time on all the "WHYs?" of it.
GAL and take care of YOU.
I worked one summer at a children's cancer camp and met 10 y/o Becky. She told me she had asked God:
"Why? Why ME God, why, why, why?? I kept asking 'why',
but finally I said 'I just am' and it's important for me to have fun while I can..."
She did have fun that summer and it was her last.
Learn from this child's wisdom. Life is short. Accept that you may never understand her reasons, let alone come to peace with them.
Accept that what is, is.
Live as well as YOU can.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016