A little update. What a roller coaster. One hour normal the next filled with hate. I started seeing a C and she is seeing one as well. Hers doesn't think it's time for couples counseling yet. I guess I understand. When she gets mad there is a lot of venom she spews. She's stayed home up to this point but threatens to leave pretty frequently. I pursue and she stays. I'm guessing that's not good. I should probably let her sleep on the couch or leave if she wants.
We read "Just Friends" together. We talked about certain parts. She's started to talk about her ground rules but anytime I bring up my boundaries she quickly says it's over and she knew it would never work. Followed by me saying for get it. I've started a lot of 180's. Cleaning, laundry, suggesting dog walks, going shopping with her, actively participating in things. I'm just really getting frustrated with having no say in anything and continuing to be a punching bag. It just hard to hear she won't commit to working on the M but then she does seem to be sharing with me. The roller coaster is really beating me down. I don't know how much more I can take of this type of pain/abuse.
Me: 33 W: 30 Two dogs (like kids to us) M: 8 years (on August 8th) Tog: 15 years Emotional Affair by me/Sexting: Lasting two weeks Discovered: 7/20/11
