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[Queen_of_Swords]

I am sorry you are having a bad day. We all have had them.

If you need to cry, cry. If you need to get angry, do that but get underneath the anger what is it you truly feel?

The love your W had for you has not completely vanished, you are part of her history ...for now, the future is yet unwritten.

How did love diminish? Like stone wearing away by the action of water, slowly and bit by bit.
Please remember she had a part in that too! It wasn't all you, what she allowed to chip away at that love is on her if she didn't speak up, if she didn't make the effort to change herself. It is also on her for not setting appropriate and clear boundaries, and not taking responsibility for her own feelings and happiness. YOU did not "make" her happy or unhappy, you did not "make" her feel love or hate or anything else.

You, darlin' do not have that kind of awesome power.

You will trust again, when you make the choice and decision to do so. That time isn't now.

Cut yourself a break. You're human, you screw up and (hopefully) you learn from doing so. You'll learn from this, oh how you'll learn!

Fall down six, get up seven man. It's all we can do.