Currently thinking things through, and as they say in the military "developing the situation".
It's been 3 days since she went on her "date". Don't feel like dropping details. I still go through a mix of emotions. Although I find myself being mostly positive, about all this. It can be quite exciting. The irony is that I no longer get jealous when she goes out with "regular friends". That's because I know that if she was to go do something she would tell me. Twisted logic, but it works.
We've spent the last few days digesting what occurred, trying to separate physical from emotional. In our arrangement emotional monogamy is very important.
I know most folks here don't agree with my decision. I want to clarify that my decision is to TRY the lifestyle, and in many ways have not passed judgement yet.
Some aspects are very appealing, like getting rid of the secrecy, the increased intimacy with your partner, even knowing that at the end of the day they came home to you. (oh and the sex too).
Some aspects are very scary, like feeling inadequate, or like you may Lose your partner, or even not be #1 in their life.
In a way it's the ultimate test in differentiation.
Here I thought I was going to make this a short one. For the next week or two I feel like i need to keep my posts to a minimum. Need some proper time to digest events before posting, I also don't plan to comment much on other folks threads. If I'm a regular poster on your thread I'll keep reading and rooting for you, just feel weird giving advice since well my goals are different now.
