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[Lonely in SLC]

Just logged in to vent.

AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Ok, a little better now. Let me explain my reasoning for screaming.

Again, I arrived at the house around 06:00 to help move more of her furniture to her new apartment. She was in one of THOSE moods. Just b****ing and nagging about everything, yelling at the kids, watch out.

She has tennis elbow (pain in the elbow) and it was hurting her today from packing. We only needed to load up a dresser onto the trailer. She was mad because I had not called anyone for help, that I was making her help move the furniture. I am thinking to myself, I am helping you, this is your furniture, I've already taken all of my stuff. I remained very calm, I was so proud of myself.

We packed up some clothes and smaller things, then it was time to go. One of my sons friends climbed into my truck to come along. I said no, because I wanted to enjoy the time with the kids. They completely ignore me when they are with their friends.

She blew up like Mount Killimanjaro!!! We were out in front of the house. She started yelling at me that I had not changed, I was to egotistical to do something for the kids, that I was usurping her authority as a parent because she had already said yes, (I did not know this).

I did not loose my patience, nor did I yell, I just said that when she was in a better mood, I would help her move, and I began to unhich the trailer. I guess I could have been a little bit more patient, I just felt like this night was not going to be a good night.

She then ordered the kids out of my truck and to get into her suv. S10 asked why, my stbxw said that it was because I did not want to be around them. That went to far for me. I stated that that was not true, I just did not want his friend to come. While I was talking she tells him that his father is a Liar. The whole time she is acting hysterical.

I asked her if we go inside and calmly talk about this, that it was not good to fight in fron of the children. She stated that she no longer had to put up with my crap, and continued to get into the car to drive away. I repeatedly asked, can we talk about this, I am willing to still help out. She drove off, looking at me with those eyes of absolute hatred. So much for the friendship thing.

I tried calling her twice on her cell. Obviously she did not answer, so I drove home, and here I am. I am so mad, but I can't let this get to me. Knowing her, she will call tomorrow to apologize, but this always happened during our marriage. It was later in our marriage that I lost patience and started yelling back at her.

I need to stay away from her for awhile, my mind is not thinking clearly now. I am so angry.