also, just when cant take anymore, more comes our way. please no more.
we found suicide note and it was truly amazing. my wife was an amazing person and cared so much for everybody. i will post parts of her note some day.
overwhelming theme was her afliction was either boarderline personality disorder or bipolar.
alos , it was addressed to me and found out that according to this note, she always loved me, always. . Also , one of her best friends told me that she never measured up to me and that some of her nastier texts were to try and get me to hate her so i could move on. She was literally trying to get me to be mean to her because she felt that is what she deserved.
so much more to say but i havent got it today. we are at family gathering , my two best friends who have been absolute pillars for me left to day and im feeling that void as well.
dont worry about me too much my friends, i have two boys to raise and i will show them strength at some point. They need me more than ever and i am aware of my role in their lives. some people where concerned about me taking my own life. Could never do that to my boys now , that would be cruel.
i know my wife didnt want to do it and loved her boys so much but simply could not see a future and actually believed she was more of a burden. She thought we would be better off with out her and actually meant it. that is how crazy her afliction is/was.
i cant believe that tomorrow will be a week. it feels like several months have already passed.
BTW, 2step, little current ontario. Basically the only greek that lives on the island if that helps.
pete
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