Tonight I am going to dinner and the movie's with my husband. First time that I will actually see him since I found out about the other woman. Don't know what I feel at this moment. Trying to get my self together. This week has been very hard for me, sometimes I don't know if I can go on with this, I just want to run away and leave all this behind.

I feel like my life has become a game and that I have to pretend that I am strong in front of my husband when I am not. I do not think that he even understands the intense pain that he has caused me. I feel alone.

M 48
H 51
Married 30
S 29
D 28
GD 5
GS 17 months
Sep May 2011
H home 8-18-11