I haven't posted to you before but I've been reading your posts to other and admire the thought and wisdom you put into them.
I agree that you will feel so much better after visiting your L today. Knowing what your share is gives you a good base to figure this out from. Not to mention having someone that is looking out for your best interests in this.
I went in to my L's office apprehensive and came out feeling a whole lot better about a situation I never thought I'd find myself in.