I dated when h and I were separated. One guy was mauling me AND seemed to like me sincerely.

He apologized a lot but it was too late. Major turn off (truly a horrid kisser. Made me miss h MORE...not less...Sheesh!!)

Other guy was attractive and had the apparent 3 date expectation. We'd had many long talks on the phone and I did like him a lot. This made me realize I would not be alone if h and I divorced, if I didn't want to be.

There ARE good men out there.

But I wasn't ready. I WAS attracted to him but felt insecure physically I think. He was uber into body building for one thing.

And after such a long m and now, with THREE dates I'm supposed to let you see my stretch marks? Hmmm...

(I am not heavy btw, and like how I look OVER ALL...) But I am a bit self conscious about a new man seeing my body for the first time in decades.

He("OM") was understanding. We kept talking and planning time together.

Then h and I reconciled before a lot more could happen,

and so I don't have a ton of regret. However,

I don't believe I could do the 3 date sex thing, very easily after this long a marriage.

I didn't do that BEFORE the marriage. Only ML with men I loved.

Maybe I could handle it better 20 years ago, or PRE pregnancy...

God, maybe it's all my ego talking??


M: 57 H: 60
M: 35 yrs
S30,D28,D19
H off to Alaska 2006
Recon 7/07- 8/08
*2016*
X = "ALASKA 2.0"
GROUND HOG DAY
I File D 10/16
OW
DIV 2/26/2018
X marries OW 5/2016

= CLOSURE 4 ME
Embrace the Change