Sweetie, this is tough stuff. And no matter how much we move forward, there will be times when we feel down.
After all, we spent a lifetime with these people, had a life and a future planned out.
And its ok to feel it, then when you are ready, let it wash over you and continue on.
Life really is what we make it. And I try (dont always succeed) each day to try to make it mean something. I remind myself that I have overcome a lot. And it really is my xh's loss.
I get to live my life with dignity and strength. I get to have the respect and love of my son. I get to look in the mirror and like what I see.
So, make your life the best it can be. Remember it is ok to have down days. And mostly remember that you dont have to do it all. Your children will be fine if you dont. They just need you in your life. That's all. All that other stuff, while nice, is not what they will remember.
The senior year and all that stuff will be distant memories. What they will remember is that you were present, that you loved them unconditionally, that you showed them how to handle life's turmoil with courage and strength.
Be kind to yourself. Take care of you. And know that the future is yours to write.
