"At this point I am not sure I want to continue DBing. It doesn't seem to be working for me and I am not sure I want to be with H anymore no matter what if he changed his mind or not."
My feelings exactly. I know I've received lots of good advice to be patient, stay the course, etc. but inside I just feel empty. No love, no anger, very little sadness; if my W came to the house tonight begging for another chance I don't know what I would say. Maybe I'd say, "OK but there are a lot of things that have to change."
And even then, how long would that last before we fell back into the old destructive ways?
We want to be with someone who loves us for who we are (not who they want us to be), is crazy about us and will miss us when we are not there. Anything less is unacceptable, IMHO.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
