Son had to cut his visit short so he's going back home today; tonight will be the 1st night in the house by myself. I think I'm OK with that but who knows how I'll feel later this evening? Probably stay at the gym longer than usual; haven't been there in over a week anyway so it will feel good to abuse my muscles again.
And my wonderful daughter is going out to dinner with me tomorrow night. She is a senior at Millersville, working FT and going to school FT. Will graduate next spring with her degree in education and a minor in English.
Before she left, W and I talked a lot about past history, our present situation and how we got to where we currently are. We agreed to not be so "dark" in our communications w/ each other. She seemed very warm and affectionate.
I think that was all smoke. W is back to no communication at all unless I contact her (about getting the rest of her things out, financial arrangements, etc.), and then she gives 1 or 2 word responses. Cold and distant. I should not be surprised or even concerned, I suppose. She is where she has wanted to be for a long time and I need to not think about it.
On the positive side, I get to move my music studio from the basement where I was sharing it with the spiders, and into one of the bedrooms on the first floor (it's a 4 bedroom house so I'll have space for my studio/office and the manly media room).
Still, it all seems like some strange dream.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
