OK, Hubby is in MLC...but do I have to PAY for it?

[Tina2111]

I've never felt unconditional love, even as a very small child. I have always been expected to "perform" to win approval, even through my two marriages (which have been most of my adult life). The closest I have felt is the love I receive FROM my small children. But they require a lot of attention to keep them happy, too.

To be honest, I don't really think I am very lovable. I have been a dork my whole life. I was the genius kid that skipped 2 grades and people laughed at. My Dad was a generally loving father who would suddenly whip me until I had bruises and welts if I failed to do what I was supposed to do (99% of the time because I actually forgot!). So I kept my nose in my books and got my "love" by getting straight A's. I always wanted to be lovable, but I just can't seem to get it right.