M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
If you have the time/desire check the email you set up your DB account with please.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. [/quote
Jack3, Is there any acceptable way for us to contact 9?
Or to somehow show support outside this board?
Though I get it, at times like these you wish to do so much more.
Words here, in front of everyone, feel sort of "diluted".
Anyhow, thanks.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
Dear 9, I'm thinking of you and your boys and wishing you future years filled with joy and happiness. You are a good man and loving father. Your wife had a long history of issues that she believed she could not overcome, even with the professionals available to her.
we're all thinking of you often, I hope that brings some comfort. While I adamantly believe you could not have prevented this, your comments have given me pause about how I DB and some of the things my WAS has said. It has made me even more certain that I should be encouraging my H to return to therapy and that I should return myself. Thank you.
Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible. --Stanislaw Lem
well the service was beautiful and went off withou a hitch.
my boys were simply amazing and somehow were able to keep it together.
\the priest was so good and delivered an amazing serom. between me nad her best friend , i think k we delivered a very heartflet euology. I felt her and wanted to make her proud. The hall was filled to overflow. i was very proud of that.
i will post my eulogy at some point today.
we went back to my place and along with some of my closest friend and family, managed to have a decent time but i keep having waves.
there was no viewing but we did get a chance to be with the body for a while.
one bad thing happend. some of her dclose friends told me about her relationship with om. how they never understood it but could not get her to see reason. her best friend told me that he beat her once b4 and she tried to get my w to leave him or to see a red flag, but my w said that it was an isolated ocassionn and he would never do it again. the whole thing actually led me to anger and when i saw her lying there, with no life in that beautiful body, i pictured him breathing and saw red.
i know it wasnt the right emotion but i couldnt help it, i actually went outside the hall and my strides to go to where he is underhouse arrest and wanted to beat him to a pulp. my nephew and best friend had to restrain me a little. its just not fair that that arsehole is breathing and rumour has it that he is courting another already. I know i need to focus on my boys but he is getting away literally with murder in my eyes.
this will not bring her back , i know all this but i cant seem to let go of the anger.
her friends told me that she so wanted to come back to the family but felt even less worth y than b4 of having this great family. She needed more time. Another tough part was holding her new councilor who i know quite well. She told me that she felt helpless with my w because they only had one session and she looked forward to working with her and she believed she could have helped her. small town huh.
BITS M-46 W-42 M-16y T-19 y s10 s15 BombDec.19/09 Sep-F16/10 Sep Papers signed by W- June 30/10 Recon July 5/10 PA foundOut- Oct 30/10 Mental HospNov/10 moved out Nov/10 Leg Sep Mar 15/11
i know its early but i cant seem to let her go. such a waste of an absolute angel. i know she was nasty sometimes in the last year but she was so fragile and that wasnt her. plain and simple, that creature she became was not my wife.
im going to need help, council and alot of support from friends and family.
somehow we will get through this but i know, i will never love anyone the way i loved her. it was unconditional. She was so sweet and funny and if i had a dime how many times people said she was stunning , i would be rich. She was stunning. i honestly never saw her look unattractive no matter what the situation.
This is going to be tough.
BITS M-46 W-42 M-16y T-19 y s10 s15 BombDec.19/09 Sep-F16/10 Sep Papers signed by W- June 30/10 Recon July 5/10 PA foundOut- Oct 30/10 Mental HospNov/10 moved out Nov/10 Leg Sep Mar 15/11
