Can my relationship be saved, part 2

[a girl]

Have had a couple of challenging moments today, but overall, have had many hours where H wasn't even in my brain.

Still struggling to decide if I'm done - I guess that means I'm not, but I think I'm edging closer every day.

Need to try to treadmill today - hurt my leg on Sunday so I skipped today, but want to get at least a short workout in this evening.

[~¤DG¤~]

I also enjoy having the entire closet to myself!

It gives me an excuse to buy more clothes to fill it with!

I also totally rearranged my kitchen cabinets as well.

[a girl]

Ok, managed to force myself through 30 minutes on the treadmill, so go me! I watched some Eddie Izzard on Netflix Watch Instantly - that helps keep me occupied.

Really looking forward to when they open the exercise room at my office building - late this month or early next month. Hoping they'll have a rowing or elliptical machine so I can mix it up a bit. Thinking 2 nights a week there + 3 nights at home will have me in great shape before I know it!

[Julz]

I love my elliptical I used to do 5 days a week 30 minutes. I got back on Monday for the first time in 9 weeks. I managed 15 minutes. I'm going to try for 20 tonight. I've lost so much weight I now need to tone up.

[a girl]

Got some good sleep last night - in bed by 11, asleep by 11:30, a full 8 hours before the alarm went off. Nice!

No dreams about H - in fact, I've only had 2 dreams about him since I discovered his affair.

Did have a dream about one of my really attractive co-workers. So that was nice.

[a girl]

Feels like my ups and downs are coming faster lately - I think my "downs" are overall going down (hah! see what I did there?) but the speed with which I go from "ok" to "anxious" back to "ok" is a little dizzying.

GAL tonight is a leisurely shopping trip at Whole Foods, where I will buy something yummy for dinner, a nice 30 minute workout on the treadmill, followed by strength training, and then eating the aforementioned yummy dinner.

H texted to ask if he could pick paintings up today - asked if I prefer he gets S7 or when he drops him off. I said "Before is fine." He said, "Ok."

Doesn't seem like he's initiating much contact, which is to be expected considering he's all wrapped up in OW. Still struggling with how I feel about him v. how I feel about the him that is doing this.

[~¤DG¤~]

Your emotions sound a lot like mine.
In general my down moments aren't as forthcoming as my good ones,
But I also can go from happy to anxious in a moments notice.

It sounds like you are doing very positive things to GAL.
Exercise is an excellent way to work out your frustrations.

[a girl]

Didn't make it to Whole Foods - got caught up talking to one of my PMs - great conversation, lots of good stuff, so totally worth it.

By the time I left the office, it was way after 6 and I was starving - came home, 20 minutes on the treadmill, then dinner.

Still doing pretty well at 20-30 minutes every day - working to get to 40 more consistently, but my legs don't often cooperate.

H is bringing S7 back in about 25 minutes - gearing myself up to be 'cordial and polite but not chatty'. We'll see.

[jbnati]

Still doing pretty well at 20-30 minutes every day - working to get to 40 more consistently, but my legs don't often cooperate.

Good for you! That exercise is highly beneficial physically and mentally.

[a girl]

Drop off went well - he didn't even come all the way up on the porch, although they were a few minutes late. S7 said, "Are you upset we're late?" and I said "No, sweetie, it's all good."

H told me they were watching something, told me what he had for dinner, I said, "See you at <therapist> at 6 tomorrow" and headed inside.

Guess he's getting that I'm not really interested in small talk with him.