Devastated

[Julz]

Thanks. Yes it does make sense. I am growing. I can now look back and see how far I'm come in the short ten weeks since he left. And whilst I still have many days that I cry and wallow I know it's not going to bring him back.

I have two kids and a business - I need to make the best of my life as it's presented itself. My world fell apart when he left - it was so sudden - I never saw it coming, nobody saw it coming. Not even his parents and he's close to them. I feel like life is kicking me whilst I'm on the ground (since he left I've had a car accident, had work stresses, computers die (he always looked after that being in IT). I keep telling myself everything happens for a reason and at the end of all this I will be a much better person. I must admit till now life has been easy. I finished high school, went to uni, fell in love, got engaged, got a good job, built a great house, got married, got pregnant, had twins, sold our house for a great profit, both quit our great jobs, moved, both got new great jobs, built another great house, started my business. Life has been brillant. Both of our parents boast about how perfect our life is, and how well we are doing. Everything just always worked out for us. We didn't want for anything. I guess this is now life saying hey you've had it too easy for too long - you need to grow so here's some hard times to teach you.