Went out for dinner w/ S tonight. Only 3 more weeks until he reports for basic training at Lackland AFB in San Antonio. After that it's air crew training, then he will enter the Defense Language Institute at the Presidio in Monterey, CA where he will study Arabic and Japanese languages.
I'm so proud of him, but I'm sure going to miss him when he leaves.
Came home and S vacuumed the whole house while I started to rearrange the furniture. Also gathered up a lot of W's things only because I really want her to just get in and get out this weekend.
I feel myself dropping the rope. I'm not really trying, either. Tonight I am about 99% sure we are done. Maybe it's because I don't feel real sad about her moving out. Tomorrow may be a different story but right now, not so much. And I think she's happy to be out, also.
Really...why do I want to try to salvage or rebuild a marriage with someone who clearly does not want to be with me?
I don't want to file, but I don't want to go on like this for months and months.
I will set a mental "deadline", I suppose. After 'X' months I'll see if this M has a pulse. If it does, I can decide how to work with it. If not, I will decide it's time to move on.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it. Tonight, anyway...
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
