Thank you, Walking. I never meant to buy his love, materially or otherwise. I just always thought, if I do a little more, or try a little harder, I'll be able to earn his respect and he will treat me better. Instead it has done the opposite. I read Dobson's Tough Love today, and I have been approaching this whole thing exactly backwards.

Now how to unwind 4 years of damage that is partly of my own creation, I am clueless.

H50
W44
M 4
D 29
D 28
D 26
S 22
S 20
D 17
S 15
S 5
D 3
1st Bomb 4/2009
Separated 2/2009 4 months
2nd Bomb 6/11
Separated 7/11 to ???