Earth to Tina. You are bouncing all over the place girl. I realize you are venting some hostility, but chill. First, no one said you were a perfectionist. They asked if YOU thought you were one, or did you think your H thought you were one.
I know this is going through he!!. Having your guts wrenched out of you just to have it done over and over again. We all get that. We've all been/are there. You are mixing your metaphors, so to speak. Do as Cadet says. Read the suggested materials. All of them. Print off the ones that impress you the most. Make it your mantra. This is a very hurtful, confusing time, but You have to take care of YOU first. Exit the drama. You do that by detaching, whether that is emotionally or physically, mentally, or all of the above. Pulling away is the only way to get a clear perspective on the situation. Yes it's hard. Makes you want to pull your hair out. And there is no time clock. No one can say it will be better in X amount of days. Life just doesn't work that way. Vent here all you want, but you might get a 2 x 4 back. That's our way of saying "Wait one DA@M minute."
For now girl, take a deep breath. Consider seeing your physician if you are having trouble sleeping, concentrating, etc. Your health is your first concern, not only for you but for your kids.
