Hey Aeo- Just wanted to drop by and say, keep your chin up. You're doing as best u can with what's been thrown at you.
There are so many similiarities with many waw's it's scary and a bit comical. I know we all hear it a lot on here-GAL, drop the rope,etc. but keep asking yourself what can I do for myself today, just today to make me feel good/better?
Somethng that helps me when I remember, is ask how am I feeling? And, if it's not good, I change my thoughts or what I'm doing. Don't want to psycho babble..try to get to a place where you're chasing experiences, circumstances, people and events that serve YOU!
I know u want your w back. It hurts, it is not fair and it nearly cripples us on some days. Remember, you deserve a great life! Feel it...ok, off soap box. Take care.